timid spring.
the careless beauty of my children romping in the woods today,
sharp, colorful, against the greening gray backdrop,
gathering twigs for a “bonfire” but first washing them in the tumbles of water or
stacking them one upon another and into bridges
alongside the brook where they were leaping, looking for frogs;
huge stones splashing in that murky fluid, one foot deep, and up bursting fountains of light,
their voices rippling across the clearings,
their giggles, their eyes flickering – light, love
shooting out of them like glittering spearheads through the trees, shouting, climbing, jumping!
what sweet, suffocating melancholy; soft warm fluff settling heavy on my soul,
my soul – itself by now the peaceful glowing aftermath of a fire,
dilated and silent, with only the crackling of cooling cinder
and water trickling on nearby, my soul
suffused with nothing but
clarity
yes, the quiet serenity of the desire to embrace life, the world,
the sizzling beauty of raw earth sprouting, of budding leaves and yellow and pink flowers,
of young lives so thick with promise, of souls so nimble, of days so limpid!
my children. my gift. my promise – to them:
a love so full, so simple, so complete.
a love absolute.
don’t hold me. you’ll lull me back into nothingness.
don’t hold me…