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Heal, heal, heal

It’s that time of year again,
time to crawl under my blanket and set out
on pilgrimages of forgetfulness.

North of here is the tomb of simple goodness – vandalized.
South of here is the mausoleum of easygoing fun – in a pile of rubble.
I mourn them both with a solemn bow,
angry visitors pass me by with their bows 
and their arrows, pointed, pushing.
Their eyes overcast, not a drop of kindness trickling down,
just a grey drizzle of me, me, me…
Maybe we simply mourn in different ways, I tell myself
and I turn on an old Romanian Christmas folk ballad.
It fills me with sorrow.
It fills me with loss. 
It is like listening in on paradise past.
When was the last time we sang to each other and felt
like living matter that needs
to be kept warm and fed – 
fed as in nourished?...
Nothing but machines, now, between us
nothing but machines between us and everything
coldly feeding us
to their anger.

I close my eyelids and let the tears roll,
roll on down,
until I’m drained and the pillow is soaked
I drift into visions of the vanished,
I forage through conjured-up hereafters
I dream things of glory
I sleep, sleep, sleep…


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